Life of postponed expectations
3 years ago, I realised that I don’t have any more time to waste. I turned up 40 and the way I looked at my life has changed.
Before, I was thinking, I have plenty of time to achieve what I wanted to achieve – better job, better car, better house. I’ll do this, I’ll do that…
But then I understood that there is no time left to dream about it.
Till that moment, I was living a life of postponed expectations.
I’ll move to New Zealand and there will be…
I was hoping that next year, next month, next weekend… something will happen that will change my life.
Maybe a good idea will come to me over a weekend and I will start my business…
… or I’ll save a bit more money to start a business in a year…
…or there will be something else, someone else, something, someone…
Those who know me, understand that I know how to set the goals and achieve them, get out of my comfort zone and go for my dreams.
So, my perspective on my “future” life wasn’t just childish dreams of an immature person. I know how to get the job done.
But I had a different mindset. A mindset of an average person.
An average person would like to change something in their life. A house they live in, a job they have, the amount of money they make, the relationship they have…
Just like me…
I was not satisfied with my job. I always wanted to do something meaningful, creative, inspiring.
And I was hoping that maybe, at some stage, something will happen and I will find the way how to get there.
I was looking forward to a weekend hoping to have more time and energy to generate some ideas that will change my life…
I was looking forward to Christmas, hoping that a new year will bring me a better future…
Looking forward to a vacation, when I finally would have time to figure out how to change my life…
And there is nothing wrong with hope. Can’t imagine my life without hope.
There was one thing I was missing!
I kept doing the same job. Because it was safe, it gave me predictable results, it paid my bills and… I didn’t know what else I can do.
I kept doing the same job expecting different results!
Job rare gives an option to leverage an income. Almost. Never.
If you are on salary, you are limited. You are just a line in a spreadsheet called “budget” a limited figure in front of your name has the potential to grow by 2% a year.
And if you have an incentive or got a bonus by hitting your target, your employer will make sure that the next target will be higher and harder to achieve.
That’s how it works.
So, I was constantly trying to grow my income by developing my career. Going higher on a corporate ladder.
Doing the same things over and over again.
This strategy was leading me to the same results. My income was slowly growing, pressure and stress level, at the same time, was skyrocketing and unfulfillment was the only outcome.
I knew that I want my own business, but it was not clear what I can do. It was risky. It was not safe.
So, I kept doing what was safe, with predictable income at the end of the month. The same miserable result over and over again.
My point is. If you want to achieve different results, you have to stop doing what you doing and start to do something different.
I don’t know where my online business will go.
What I know for sure is I’m doing something, that I’ve never, ever done before in my life.
How about you? Are you still doing the same things expecting different results?